Friday August 1, 2008

Tomorrow (actually today, but I have yet to go to bed) is my last day at work. It is weird. I plan to get all of my outstanding expense reports done and turned in. What seems really weird is that almost no one will be in the office tomorrow. My office mate (one of my bosses) will be in the OC, her assistant isn't in, my other boss is in SF, and the two big bosses are in Chicago. And I don't think many people will be in at all. odd and weird. I am taking class in the evening to end my day, which will be a good end to a weird day.

A friend said to me this evening that it is the end of an era. Which seems so apropos, and I had named my playlist for this evening exactly that. I didn't finish the playlist as I found another I really liked and hadn't used in a long time. But here are some of the songs from it...

18 - Moby
Smoke and Ashes - Tracy Chapman
Perdido en Ti - Diego
I Do Not Want What I Haven't Got - Sinead O'Connor
Fallin' - Alicia Keys
Where I Stood - Missy Higgins
Like This - Mims
Fight the Power - Korn featuring Xzibit
Elevator (feat. Timbaland) - Flo Rida
I Say Hey - Kinky

(some of them are just new things that I just got, some are old favs, and some that I didn't even choose for the "theme" are very apropos).

Life is weird. And I am so glad my week now seems so full of possibility rather than full of "have to"s.

the coffee episode

So, anyone who knows me, knows I gave up drinking coffee about 2 years ago. Well, this has nothing to do with drinking coffee. So continue reading at your own risk.

Two weeks ago in my Pain and Orthopedic Evaluation class, my teacher got tired of telling people one on one how to do a coffee enema. So, he gave us all the directions. My thought was, hhmmmm...some day.

Well, this last Saturday in my deep tissue class, my teacher announced that this week (the upcoming Saturday) we would be working on the Psoas - which lies under your large intestine (i think i have my anatomy correct there) and we should clear out our large intestines before class this week and the best way to do this was a coffee enema.

Okay, I thought, I can do this, my mom used to do them all the time (part of the Gerson Therapy). But, I'd better try it before Friday or Saturday, because I don't know the timing of my body.

So, Sunday, I bought an enema bag and Monday, I bought coffee - organic, free trade coffee. So, Monday night, I proceeded to give myself a coffee enema. Granted I completely disregarded my teacher's directions that one should not do this at night (because I wasn't going to have any day time to do it until Saturday) and I disregarded my friend saying it was like really good cocaine (hmmm... what does that do, keep you up?). Well, I didn't keep the coffee in as long as you are supposed to. Perhaps that was a good thing. I was so wired, it was hard to get to sleep and when I did, I didn't sleep well. Granted, I slept on the floor due to my concern that relaxing might make a mess (which it didn't - thank goodness) and I think people were climbing on the fire escape during the night - or I might have just imagined that. Anyway I didn't sleep well or much and I was still wired in the morning.

The wierd, nostalgic thing was the smell reminded me of my mom as she did coffee enemas as part of the Gerson Therapy when she was sick.

Anyway, I am going to do it again early Saturday morning. We shall see how it goes the second time.

thoughts

So many things to write about. Tomorrow is my last day at work (the office part of my job aka the stable income portion). The coffee episode from earlier in the week. My new portable hard drive (yes I am a geek). A phone call from someone checking in on me to make sure I am okay. A referral on LnkdIn from a woman I used to work with (at my current job) that made me feel appreciated. I haven't written at all about massage school - which I love. And I keep coming up with things I want to do and I will actually have time to do now (although I may not be able to afford them - but where there is a will, there is a way).

(yes, this entry is total stream of consciousness).

Fired

Fired, let go, we are cutting back...
Whatever, I just got fired from my day job.
Not sure how I feel about it. I think my last day is the last day of the month. I have one whole extra week of pay - woo hoo! and i do have health insurance through the end of the year. Part of me wants to rebel. Part of me wants to cry. Other than financial stability it is probably a good thing.

Thoughts on writing

There are so many things I think of writing during my week and yet I don't. There is a poem about frustration. There are my thoughts about doing the same thing over and over again and expecting a different outcome (that is the definition of crazy right?). My thoughts on shiatzu (that I like it and my classes). Wanting to go to yoga and not making it. General thoughts on life. I think I need to write them down somewhere else before writing them here.

DESIRES

I am about to leave the office, my hours seem crazy now that I am in school (but I love school, so it is worth it). Anyway, as I redid my white board, updating what I am working on, I also updated my desires...

MY DESIRES (currently)
1. Remain Hiveless
2. Grace (always)
3. Fun dates with future loverman-husband
4. Remunerated (paid) such that I feel valued and appreciated
5. A yoga practice
6. Speak Spanish well
7. Find time for ballet
8. A 1 bedroom with a yard in my neighborhood that is affordable and fabulous
9. A Newfoundland (choclate brown)

things I am excited about today!!

Today I am excited about several unrelated things...

1. Going to see Wanted this weekend with a friend.
2. A body work workshop that I signed up for on Saturdays with my Anatomy teacher.
3. Kinky is playing at a street fair in Los Angeles next month.

I know, I am a geek. But these things excite me.