First Week of Being Underemployed

This week was my first week of being underemployed. It was amazingly still full. Monday I discovered Facebook - okay that is a time suck. Fun, but wow. Tuesday I have classes that aren't back to back during the day, which was fine when I worked in the office. Now it is a little wierd. But after my second class, some of my long time students wanted to grab something downstairs to eat and after my third class (which isn't normal for me to teach) we went and saw Batman (which was good). Wednesday I had both school and work and the time in between seemed to disappear quickly. Thursday, I had appointments in the morning and then work. Friday I had school; I took Frankie to the vet and I went to yoga. It is amazing how easy it is to fill up a week. Now in addition to school, I have trapeze class on thursday mornings (see next entry).

Friday August 1, 2008

Tomorrow (actually today, but I have yet to go to bed) is my last day at work. It is weird. I plan to get all of my outstanding expense reports done and turned in. What seems really weird is that almost no one will be in the office tomorrow. My office mate (one of my bosses) will be in the OC, her assistant isn't in, my other boss is in SF, and the two big bosses are in Chicago. And I don't think many people will be in at all. odd and weird. I am taking class in the evening to end my day, which will be a good end to a weird day.

A friend said to me this evening that it is the end of an era. Which seems so apropos, and I had named my playlist for this evening exactly that. I didn't finish the playlist as I found another I really liked and hadn't used in a long time. But here are some of the songs from it...

18 - Moby
Smoke and Ashes - Tracy Chapman
Perdido en Ti - Diego
I Do Not Want What I Haven't Got - Sinead O'Connor
Fallin' - Alicia Keys
Where I Stood - Missy Higgins
Like This - Mims
Fight the Power - Korn featuring Xzibit
Elevator (feat. Timbaland) - Flo Rida
I Say Hey - Kinky

(some of them are just new things that I just got, some are old favs, and some that I didn't even choose for the "theme" are very apropos).

Life is weird. And I am so glad my week now seems so full of possibility rather than full of "have to"s.

thoughts

So many things to write about. Tomorrow is my last day at work (the office part of my job aka the stable income portion). The coffee episode from earlier in the week. My new portable hard drive (yes I am a geek). A phone call from someone checking in on me to make sure I am okay. A referral on LnkdIn from a woman I used to work with (at my current job) that made me feel appreciated. I haven't written at all about massage school - which I love. And I keep coming up with things I want to do and I will actually have time to do now (although I may not be able to afford them - but where there is a will, there is a way).

(yes, this entry is total stream of consciousness).

Fired

Fired, let go, we are cutting back...
Whatever, I just got fired from my day job.
Not sure how I feel about it. I think my last day is the last day of the month. I have one whole extra week of pay - woo hoo! and i do have health insurance through the end of the year. Part of me wants to rebel. Part of me wants to cry. Other than financial stability it is probably a good thing.

DESIRES

I am about to leave the office, my hours seem crazy now that I am in school (but I love school, so it is worth it). Anyway, as I redid my white board, updating what I am working on, I also updated my desires...

MY DESIRES (currently)
1. Remain Hiveless
2. Grace (always)
3. Fun dates with future loverman-husband
4. Remunerated (paid) such that I feel valued and appreciated
5. A yoga practice
6. Speak Spanish well
7. Find time for ballet
8. A 1 bedroom with a yard in my neighborhood that is affordable and fabulous
9. A Newfoundland (choclate brown)

the perfect employment

I have been thinking alot on this trip, what would I like to change about my job (other than my salary) that would make me happier.

I love training and teaching. What don't I like? and can I stop doing it?

Preliminary thoughts.

Thinking about getting a job at a bookstore as I love books, but I am afraid it would just be too frustrating to have all these books to read around you and not being allowed to.

I have been thinking about going to massage school. It is something I have always been good at. I don't know if I'd like to do it as a job though. But learning more can't hurt and the anatomy portion would be great for teaching what I teach now.

The fact I discovered the job I have now and it is almost perfect makes me think I can somehow rearrange it so it is at least closer to perfect. Is that asking too much? Is it just a case of feeling appreciated (financially and otherwise) and will that change? can it change? what can I do to cause it to change? What can I change about how I do my job to have it change?

Random thoughts... stream of conciousness...

pov

I knew this last week at work would be full and possibly hairy and harried. It actually went well AND I feel that since I decided to be good with whatever, my attitude about it was much better. It was a definite choice that I made on Sunday. It made it so much better.

travel

This last week was a big week at work. We were training people from all over the country at our LA studio. This week, we are moving offices. This weekend I am off to NYC to complete their upper level training. The next weekend, I am off to SF to begin their upper level training. The NYC group is 3 people. The SF group is 7. Very different. Also in SF, my dad is having his 75th birthday party. This will be fun (except for the part that I have to go and train directly afterwards, but that will work out).

I am not quite sure why I am writing this but I am.