Morning Music

Went for a walk this morning and the shuffle on my play list took my brain on a ride...
Are You Experienced - Patti Smith
Falling Slowly - Glen Hansard & Marketa Irglova
Amie - Damien Rice
Where Did you Sleep Last Night? (Live) - Nirvana - which during the clapping I was thinking about how much pain one might need to be in to want to end it
Maybe I'm Amazed - Paul McCartney - which in contrast to thinking about death, lifts you up and opens your heart, and I wondered if someone would feel that way about me, and I thought of my trainee that turned me on to the song and that whole class of trainees and how proud I am of them
(then sticking with the beatles theme...)
I Am the Walrus - Bono
5 String Serenade - Mazzy Star
(then making me smile as I approached home)
The Groove is On - Groove Armada

when your playlist makes you laugh

Went for a walk this morning on the beach. Was breathing into my heart as the song Ready for Love by India.Arie came on. I thought to myself "well, perfect song." Then I ran into the man I have been seeing on and off for 4 years (I haven't spent any time with him since before April) and is moving to Germany this month. He was walking with his mom. We talked for a moment and I walked on. The next song to come on Scrood By U by Lords of Acid, which made me laugh as the lyrics are how in some ways I feel about him. Then as I turned around and crossed his path again Let's Get It On by good ole Marvin Gaye was playing. Then on my way back to my apartment was Ooh La La with Goldfrapp singing about being made for love. And then my favorite Song of the Siren by This Mortal Coil. And the whole time I kept remembering to breath into my heart. And I realized that his moving away creates more space for me to love and fall in love. And as I walked into my building I revolutionary thought (for me) that I love him, but I am not in love with him anymore.

Just an interesting side note, I named my new Ipod "Soundtrack to my Adventure."

Rain

Just got back from a walk. It was nice and cool as I left with big clouds blowing across the sky. And on my way back, they opened up and big drops of rain fell. At first sporadically, then in sheets. It was fabulous as it isn't cold enough to care that you are wet. It looks dark and dreary but it feels refreshing (not so refreshing that I wanted to stay outside after I made it all the way back, but refreshing none the less). The sidewalks were a bit slick and worrisome, but it was great. I got back to a freshly cleaned room. Gotta love it.