Hives and my mental health

At some point early this week, my sister pointed out that I didn't seem happy. And unfortunately she is right. So we talked about things that would help - a therapist, chocolate, and sex. (Granted chocolate and sex are short term, but endorphins are always good). She was big on the therapist for the long haul and chocolate in the meantime.

Midweek, I went for a waxing, but due to the hives, we really couldn't wax. My waxer and I were talking and she recommended I check out her talking doctor and then she called someone she knows that is kind of an intuitive - she clears crap out of your energy (I think that is how one might describe it). She talked to me for a couple minutes and said my hives were probably due to one of three things (let's see if i can remember all three). All three struck a chord. The first had to do with abandonment issues "probably concerning your mother." hmmmm.... The second had something to do with feeling like a victim (I don't remember but it struck home the way she said it). And the third had to do with feeling like you haven't done enough (which is pretty much how I always feel) but she said it stemmed from something in my childhood and childhood responsibilities. I haven't called her to get her services for clearing yet. Still mulling it over, but... she seems onto something.

I finally called my healer and she said my hives were probably due to stress and too much heat in my body. To eat/drink thinks that would cool me down (ie: grapefruit juice) and to concentrate on being happy. It is hard to take someone telling you to be happy, when you don't feel like you have access to it at all. But I am going to see her today and I have been drinking lots of grapefruit juice.

Thursday I did have a meeting with our COO where we discussed my job duties and my salary. This meeting made me feel much better for several reasons - I felt heard and I got that she appreciates me.

Yesterday I saw my acupuncturist. She thinks the hives are a virus trapped in an energy channel (it makes sense when she explains it). And there might be something connected to my large intestine too. So I am taking fiber and flax seed oil and a skin remedy.

So somehow all of these things culminating have helped my hives - they are still here and itch, but not as bad - which is a step in the right direction. And although I wouldn't say I am happy, I wouldn't say it feels completely inaccessible either.