Do you write 5 year plans? or even 1 year plans?
I know that people that do accomplish much more than those of us that don't.
I have a desires list.
I feel like some of my big life decisions depend upon getting married and finding appropriate sperm. And although I have tried to put that on a timeline before, I have just decided to stay in action (dating, meeting people, etc.) and not feel pushed.
But, I guess there are definite measure ables that could be accomplished this year.
I definitely want a pay increase this year.
I want my actual work place situation to change.
I want a car that runs on bio-diesil
I want ...
there is a lot that I want that i don't want to put a date on.
I want to married to a remarkable man that adores me (and whom I adore and he makes my socks roll up & down)
I want to create a family with him.
I want to travel to Galicia again and walk from Santiago to Finesterre.
I want to visit Provence and smell the lavender.
I want to visit Greece during their Easter.
Where do I want to be within my company in a year, 5 years?
This one will take a lot of thought.
It seems the more you are promoted, the less you actually get to train or teach, which I love.
Wednesday, January 30, 2008
full but mellow weekend
Why is it that when I am invited to a friends house for a get together, I am always hopeful that they may have invited a man for me to meet. But alas, alack aday, this seems to be the last thing on their "to do" lists.
Well, I suppose there were 2 single men at the games night I went to Saturday. But they were 8 and 13 years old - a bit too young (even for me).
And a knitting class probably wasn't the smartest class to take if I wanted to meet a man. There are men in the store (rarely) but none in our class. But I am enjoying it. I am making hats for all the new babies my cohorts in teaching have had lately, a sweater for my niece and hand warmers (just because). I will have to figure out who to give the hand warmers (wrist warmers maybe?) to, as I probably won't wear them.
Which reminds me, I need to find a pattern for a headband/earwarmer thing. I am going to NYC next weekend to train some teachers.
Well, I suppose there were 2 single men at the games night I went to Saturday. But they were 8 and 13 years old - a bit too young (even for me).
And a knitting class probably wasn't the smartest class to take if I wanted to meet a man. There are men in the store (rarely) but none in our class. But I am enjoying it. I am making hats for all the new babies my cohorts in teaching have had lately, a sweater for my niece and hand warmers (just because). I will have to figure out who to give the hand warmers (wrist warmers maybe?) to, as I probably won't wear them.
Which reminds me, I need to find a pattern for a headband/earwarmer thing. I am going to NYC next weekend to train some teachers.
Monday, January 21, 2008
Hives Girl Goes to Writing Class
Woke up with hives on Friday. They haven't gone away yet. Have taken to wearing long sleeves so no one notices.
Started a writing workshop tonite. My friend Mel put it together. It includes mild yoga and breath work and then....you write. We also picked goddess cards to pick a goddess to guide us. Mine was Kuan Yin - a goddess of compassion. The card said:
"Release judgements about yourself and others, and focus on the love and light that is within everyone."
Why is it that compassion is always what I need more of?
I suppose we all do.
Started a writing workshop tonite. My friend Mel put it together. It includes mild yoga and breath work and then....you write. We also picked goddess cards to pick a goddess to guide us. Mine was Kuan Yin - a goddess of compassion. The card said:
"Release judgements about yourself and others, and focus on the love and light that is within everyone."
Why is it that compassion is always what I need more of?
I suppose we all do.
My Knight In Shining Armor
Where is my knight in shining armor?
Is he now a middle aged man who married someone else and is now looking for me?
Have I been Rapunzel up in her tower only letting down my hair occasionally?
Has his armor become rusty?
Do I need to carry WD40 wherever I go, just in case?
What happens if you never get to "happily ever after"?
What if I never find my arms of solace?
Or what if I found them and they weren't to be mine?
In happily ever after, who takes out the trash?
Is he now a middle aged man who married someone else and is now looking for me?
Have I been Rapunzel up in her tower only letting down my hair occasionally?
Has his armor become rusty?
Do I need to carry WD40 wherever I go, just in case?
What happens if you never get to "happily ever after"?
What if I never find my arms of solace?
Or what if I found them and they weren't to be mine?
In happily ever after, who takes out the trash?
Love and other Meanderings (inc. a letter to my mom)
love
from the heart
Heart pouring out
soaking another with love.
Drowned by love - a concept
Could someone's love be so big that it might literally drown you?
How horrible to drown one that you love with your abundance of love.
How much love can a person absorb, accept, allow.
If someone's heart has only a trickle of love,
how do they break the dam open?
Can they? Do they want to?
Life bombards us with ideas, concepts, commitments, shoulds and shouldn'ts.
How do we pick and choose which to accept, which to let in.
Which do we let run us?
Which do we refrain from?
How do you cuddle yourself?
Seek solace with your own arms?
Where are the other arms that I am to seek solace inside of?
I feel as if suddenly - all of a sudden -
I have aged. I suddenly look my age.
Dear Mom,
Please help Kuan Yin to supply me with endless compassion. Please help me to find the arms that will provide me with solace and strength and love; the arms that with both protect and provide. The arms that are connected to the body with which I will procreate.
I know, I need to get back into action.
It is all in my hands. The creation of my life. The search for the arms of solace.
I cannot choose a man that I want to help.
I can choose a man I want to build something with.
The architect gave me hope. He was driftwood. I am getting near the shore. The circus guy was driftwood too.
What is next to do to find land? I may find an island (bigger driftwood) before I find land.
from the heart
Heart pouring out
soaking another with love.
Drowned by love - a concept
Could someone's love be so big that it might literally drown you?
How horrible to drown one that you love with your abundance of love.
How much love can a person absorb, accept, allow.
If someone's heart has only a trickle of love,
how do they break the dam open?
Can they? Do they want to?
Life bombards us with ideas, concepts, commitments, shoulds and shouldn'ts.
How do we pick and choose which to accept, which to let in.
Which do we let run us?
Which do we refrain from?
How do you cuddle yourself?
Seek solace with your own arms?
Where are the other arms that I am to seek solace inside of?
I feel as if suddenly - all of a sudden -
I have aged. I suddenly look my age.
Dear Mom,
Please help Kuan Yin to supply me with endless compassion. Please help me to find the arms that will provide me with solace and strength and love; the arms that with both protect and provide. The arms that are connected to the body with which I will procreate.
I know, I need to get back into action.
It is all in my hands. The creation of my life. The search for the arms of solace.
I cannot choose a man that I want to help.
I can choose a man I want to build something with.
The architect gave me hope. He was driftwood. I am getting near the shore. The circus guy was driftwood too.
What is next to do to find land? I may find an island (bigger driftwood) before I find land.
My First Writing Class - Rocks
Rocks ground you,
they build up,
are a part of something bigger than itself.
The earth, a castle, a fort, a cave.
Like us, they are interconnected to be something bigger than themselves.
they build up,
are a part of something bigger than itself.
The earth, a castle, a fort, a cave.
Like us, they are interconnected to be something bigger than themselves.
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