Just got home from a date and I wonder...

I wonder... It was a third date. I kissed him after he walked me to the car. and no "ooh!" no socks rolling up and down. When we talked I wondered what he was passionate about (granted I didn't think of asking that straight out until later, I had asked what he enjoys doing for fun). He seems great and caring and intelligent, but not really opinionated or excited. Maybe it is because he still seems a bit nervous around me, but I don't know. If I'd felt something during the kiss it would have helped. But nothin'. arrgh...

New Year's Day

Welcome 2009. We have been waiting for you. We have great hopes for you. We have a new president being inaugurated this month. And we have all kinds of possibilities available. It may not seem that way with the climate of lack and want. But there are always possibilities. It will be an exciting year.

My friend, Tracy, asked me last night what I wanted in 2009. My first though was to be madly in love and happily pregnant (and I added - in love with some one equally in love with me and excited that I am pregnant with his child).

This "resolution" scares the begeezers out of me in some way. I have said it before and it hasn't happened yet. Having it not happen scares me and having it happen scares me too. But being madly in love and happy sounds like fabulous way to spend my time on earth. It is definitely something to live into.

dating

Does anyone other than me often judge their date as others would see them? I had a second date with someone yesterday - unfortunately I was pooped and I am not sure why. He is very nice and kind and thoughtful. I am wondering what else there is to him. I can't go too beige.
Today I had a first date with someone, who I don't know if I will see him again. He is very fit. But he made a joke of everything I said. I think he was trying to be witty. And when he spoke, he sometimes closed his eyes to think. It was just very stylized. Knowing that my family would have such fun mocking him, I just don't know if I should go on a second date. But maybe, just maybe when he relaxes he is less stylized.

Travel and Christmas are upon me

Travel and Christmas are upon me. Unfortunately that statement feels literal. As if I am being slightly smooshed by them. It is not huge and dramatic, just slight. I am rather ill prepared for both. And yet I am driving north tomorrow. I won't list what needs to get done before I go. Some of it may not get done. And that will have to be okay and typing it all here would take longer than doing some of it. Being home will be great. Seeing my nieces and my family will be great. And this Christmas should be pretty mellow. I am planning on giving everyone massages - so I get lots of practice and they get to feel how good I am (hopefully).

Facebook Status

I realize my need to blog has been greatly taken care of by updating my facebook status regularly. I think I am going to blog (even if it is just a sentence or two) every time I update my status.

Cleanse Done

I completed the 10 day Master Cleanse. Day 11 I drank the prescribed OJ and Day 12 I made some vegetable soup (which was yummy). I haven't had caffeine in 15 days - ooh! For me that is a record. Last time I did this, I didn't do the salt water flush or give up coffee. It all went well. That first weekend of eating (3 days after eating for the first time) I went out and ate with my parents. That first night I must have been a little gluttonous for early the next morning I woke up to my intestines simultaneously crying and yelling at me. I was fine but tender the next day and I ate rather more carefully the rest of the weekend. I still haven't had caffiene - 3 weeks later. I realized at the end of the 10 days that I could probably fit into my skinny jeans and lo and behold I can (unitended bonus).

Day 6 of Master Cleanse

So, I did this once before for 10 days. But I didn't do the salt water flush. I am doing it this time. Granted it means you have to get up a lot earlier than you want so you feel intestinally secure when you walk out the door.
Normal side effect to this are bad breath and a coating on your tongue. (Luckily, I read that these were normal). In addition, my hips are achy. I did read that your body gets achy due to toxins getting released and cleansed (again, normal). Good side effects that others noticed (not I) - more energy (or at least I had it during rehearsal yesterday) and the dark circles under my eyes were lessened (granted I am having an easier time getting myself to bed earlier now).
My favorite thing about this cleanse is you don't have to make ANY decisions about food. Whereas on a diet you have choices - this eliminates them completely. Granted last night I really wanted ice cream and I did get to decide "no." If I had chosen "yes" I probably would have felt horrible - bleah.