disconcerting

It is a little disconcerting to be watching Grey's Anatomy and happen to not fast forward through a news clip only to find out that your bank has been seized by the feds. Hmmmm.... I think I am changing banks tomorrow. The only thing is that my paycheck is being deposited automatically tomorrow. I guess I need to take care of that paperwork for my next paycheck. Life is wierd. We never thought banks could fail as we have fail safes in place. They don't seem as fail safe as they should. Or maybe it is that the depositors money is still safe (I certainly hope) even though the bank is changing hands. I am not sure how it works, but they just opened a Wells Fargo across the street from my home, so here I come.

eharmony

Okay, I am fessing up. I have put myself on eharmony. My friend Victoria came over monday to help me fill out the forms and she has been giving me help over the phone since then. I officially joined yesterday and have taken on "conversing" with at least 5 people a day. Victoria says stick with at least 3, if there aren't 5 that are worth it - don't email just to make the numbers. But I think if they keep sending me more matches, I will always have options.

Yesterday I sent questions to 6 people. Tonite, I emailed 8 men. I am realizing that spelling and grammar are important to me since incorrect spelling and grammar drive me a bit crazy. (my sister is laughing at that as mine aren't perfect) I figure if I notice the error it is obvious.

We shall see - I will keep you "posted".

update on desires from last week

1. I highly doubt the man i met last week read this blog - thank goodness
2. all of my classes lately have been really great
3. my trip to the dentist was long and my tooth is still a little tender, but it all went well
4. I didn't help the boy previously mentioned celebrate his birthday
5. Didn't go to the party where I would have had to wear silver, so didn't need to find an outfit. Instead I went to an old college friend's housewarming. It was great to touch base with him again and meet his sweetheart.
6. I have been sleeping well (when I get to bed)

A quick update...

My heart is so much better. Time does wonders and so do friends well wishes and threats to kick him the shins. I know it is less than a week but it was only a wee heartbreak. And not that it helped my heart, but he did email to thank me for the flowers, which did make me feel appreciated.

My new habits are actually going pretty well. The first week, I did blog 4 times during the week, although (reasonably so) I didn't feel like writing much last week.
Walking and journaling do well during the week, but on weekends, they seem to lapse. My flylady habits are still spotty, but getting better as I am seeing clients at my home. This kind of forces the issue.

And my crown (the one on my tooth, not the one that I wear when I am being the "queen of all i see") is doing well as long as don't grind my teeth - then it hurts.

free will astrology

Years ago, my friend Victoria turned me on to Free Will Astrology. Now, many people poo poo astrology - that is fine. This astrologer writes things in a fabulous and cryptic way so you take from it what you need. In reading on that site this morning, I found two things that struck cords within me and seemed worth sharing. Neither were horoscopes but from Rob Breznsy's book PRONOIA Is the Antidote for Paranoia: How the Whole World Is Conspiring to Shower You with Blessings.

The first:

A Spell to Commit Pronoia, by psychotherapist Jennifer Welwood:

Willing to experience aloneness,
I discover connection everywhere;
Turning to face my fear, I meet the warrior who lives within;
Opening to my loss, I am given unimaginable gifts;
Surrendering into emptiness, I find fullness without end.
Each condition I flee from pursues me.
Each condition I welcome transforms me
And becomes itself transformed Into its radiant jewel-like essence.
I bow to the one who has made it so, Who has crafted this Master Game;
To play it is pure delight, To honor it is true devotion.

And the second had the directions to notice how you feel as you speak the following:

"The strong, independent part of me resisted the embarrassing truth for a long time, but I finally came to accept that I'm someone who craves vast amounts of love. Ever since I surrendered to this need, it doesn't nag me all the time, as it used to. In fact, it feels comforting, like a source of sweetness that doesn't go away. I never thought I'd say this, but I've come to treasure the feeling of having a voracious yearning to be loved."

sightings...

Part of the fun of living in lala land is that every so often you get to see someone famous that you admire. This week I had two of those sightings!!! Neither is particularly famous. But I admire both of them. Granted, I didn't stop and talk to either of them, so it may just have been their doppelgangers, in which case, it doesn't matter, as it just made me excited.

Thursday, before going into the studio to teach, I stopped by the Starbucks near work. As I was leaving I saw this interesting looking guy with fitted jeans (not the norm for LA) and long skinny pointed shoes. It was the lead singer of Kinky. (as I write my iTunes shuffle just started playing one of their songs - tee hee hee). If I had had the courage to speak to him, I would have told him that I love to watch him dance. They way he moves across the stage is just so much fun, it makes me want to dance. Unfortunately, being in the crowd at concerts doesn't allow for that kind of movement, and jumping up and down in place just makes me frustrated. So I usually just stand still and watch.

Then, this morning walking back from the farmer's market with my breakfast and my groceries, I saw this redheaded man pushing a double stroller. When he looked up, it was the actor from the tv series Life. This was my favorite new show from last season. I am so excited it is coming back (the end of this month). I was just talking about this show on Friday.

The singer's name is Gilberto Cerezo and the actor's name is Damian Lewis. But I didn't know that before now. I have just admired them namelessly for a long time.

habits...

It takes 28 days to form a habit. I was talking about this with a friend of mine yesterday. One of her new habits is eating at home or eating something she made at home. Great habit to start. Last night before going to bed, i thought that there were a few habits I, too, wanted to start. Here goes: journaling every morning, blogging - at least 4 x per week, and walking every morning and their are some "flylady" habits I am starting too. Day one - so far so good. There are several things I want to blog about - my trip last weekend to San Francisco, the thing at the pier last month, my adventures on the subway & going to see Kinky, thoughts on men, and , hmmm.. i think that is it for now. (I think that is considered a teaser). Tonite, is all about habits - perhaps rituals is a better word.